Here's what you missed... End of Summer 2012

Hello everyone! Long time since I have posted... Therefore I suppose I should fill you in on why I have been so absent. Well, it's been a crazy roller coaster of summer, honestly. Well, to start off everything. I have a boyfriend. His name is Nic. So, I obviously spend a lot of time with him. He's wonderful and I don't know how I could have gotten through this summer without something so stable in my life. In June, I passed out in my bathroom while my friend was coloring my hair. Which led me to finding out I have an arrhythmia in my heart (short PR interval) to be exact. I got my lab done, and I am okay! Everything lab related showed that I need to change my diet and manage my stress better. I got put on a heart monitor and all it showed is that I have a strong normal heart, but I have a slight abnormality which is just going to be normal for me. In case anyone was wondering, I am perfectly fine. I no longer eat red meat, drink cokes, no sweet tea (which sucks), sweets, and I tend to try and stay away from anything greasy. I work out like a lot. I've started boxing, rock climbing, and just basically running a lot. I feel better, and I think I'm more tone body-wise than I was when I graduated high school. ON A LIGHTER NOTE, I got to go to Florida and Dallas. Florida was a trip with my dad, and Dallas was a nice little work weekend. Market was fantastic! Okay, so in July I went to Orlando with my boyfriend and his family. Universal is soooo different than what it used to be. Granted, I haven't been there in like eight years, so I guess that is expected. My mom is having surgery the end of this week, I'll spare the details. She's just getting some things looked at, but she'll be okay. Just fingers crossed and prayers sent my way if possible. Later tonight or tomorrow, I'll post about another big thing that happened this summer. I leave to go back to school on the fourth and then I'll be out of touch for about 2 weeks. I'll have lots to update after recruitment and of course the first week of school. YIKES!!! I'm changing my major AGAIN! I'm going to get my master's in early childhood education but keep my legal studies minor because I still want to be a nuclear (family) attorney. However, with a political science degree... It's really hard to get a job and what happens if I decide law school isn't for me??? So I really missed working with kids, and I'm changing my major. Soo yeah, that's about it.

Now that I've caught all of you up on myself :) of course, I have a lovely tangent to go on (as usual). Tonight's topic is marriage. In case any of you were wondering, there is absolutely zero ring on my finger. I just want to talk about this for a bit. Okay, the basics. Man/Wife combo, Man/Man combo, Wife/Wife combo what ever other preference there is... it's sacred. I feel that our generation either gets married because they feel they need to or because they have to due to poor decisions. To clarify, I don't mean poor decisions being just pregnancy. I mean to try and get them to stay or you feel that you need to get married to complete yourself. Whatever the excuse may be, let me be the first to tell you to slow the heck down. The average life span of a human being if they are healthy is like 70 and above. The average college student graduates at the age of 22-23. That's about a 50 year span to find someone and settle down and whatnot. Stop rushing into bad marriages. Now I'm not saying that you shouldn't ever get married in college or anything like that. However, I am saying that if you truly care about someone, they are worth the wait. You are going to spend the rest of your life together (hopefully), so why rush? Miley Cyrus is 4 days younger than me and she is engaged. I'm almost 20 and I'm in my second longest serious relationship. Granted, I don't like to date. It freaks me out, but that's a whole topic I'll get on another time. I'm sorry, but I'm not getting married anytime soon.
Okay, next issue with marriage. Love is love. REGARDLESS OF SEX OR PREFERENCE. This whole Chic-fil-a issue, I'm sorry, but this is up there with the whole gay marriage civil rights issue that's kinda big right now. Honestly, who cares. Sure, it is not your thing, you're heterosexual congratulations. We have a lot bigger issues like a guy that killed people in a movie theater because he thinks he is the joker. Get over it. Everyone deserves to be happy and love someone. It has nothing to do with you unless you know the person directly. Personally, I think gay marriage should be legal just because the wedding business would shoot through the roof, and I'm all for an economy boost whether it be in weddings or poodles, I really don't care. It's a touchy topic and I realize everyone has their opinions on it, and this is why I blog. These are my thoughts from brain to fingers, if you don't like it. Feel free to not read anything I post. I'm opinionated, deal with it. Until next time, keep an eye out for more posts about my life or something that ticks me off in society. It happens. Love you all, and please tell someone close to you that you love them. You never know when you won't get to see them everyday. It sucks.

Alpha love and all of mine,
Alexa :)

Late Night thoughts

Good evening everyone. Well, I'm going to go ahead and warn you that this blog entry is probably going to be extremely jumbled because my thoughts at the moment are going about 120 mph. So my apologies for that. However, my first topic is exes. They are called exes for a reason. The "X" on your heart and your list of bad ideas normally. To me it's funny how the ones you want the most out of your life, always try to weasel their way in. It drives me crazy. I have an ex that I dated for about a year, and we were toxic. Correction, he is/was toxic. I became an awful person when I was with him. I was mean and I lost a lot of friends because of him and what I became from being around him. He cheated on me numerous upon numerous times, and in the long run I knew what was going on. However, I was so "in love" that I didn't care. I was so stupid. This was about 3 years ago and he still tries to be with me, but when you tell someone that you are done. BE DONE. Stop hurting yourself and the other person because you aren't getting anywhere positive. Not every relationship is suppose to work out. It happens. He is the reason that I have a lot of the relationship issues that I have. I have trust issues, guarded issues, and confidence issues. It's taken me three years, just to say that I'm over him and to be okay. My summer goal is to be happy. Whatever it takes. I'm picking up my piano book, going hiking, painting. I've been single for a year; honestly, I think it's better that way. Tonight in church, we discussed boundaries. I think I need to recreate some of those. Whether they be in a relationship or just within myself. I've let myself get away from me and become a swirl within my surroundings. In a way, I guess I've reached my breaking point. I don't recognize myself anymore. I want to just throw away everything in my room. Nothing reflects who I am, and it doesn't help that when I get upset, I just shut down. I know I shouldn't bottle up my emotions, but I hope maybe somebody reading this will read this and maybe they are like me. I hope that someone doesn't make the mistakes that I have made. My father is moving back to Florida this summer. I understand why he is leaving, but it still sucks. We are just now getting super close. As sad as it sounds, I feel like I'm 6 years old again when he left the first time. Everything in my life is changing. The next year to two years are going to change my life honestly. I feel out of control, and there's nothing I can do about it. My friends mean the most to me right now. However, my thoughts are so jumbled I wouldn't even know what to tell them if they saw that something was wrong. To me, it's easier to just bottle everything up. Keep everything inside and then just fake a smile like everything is okay. In conclusion, don't judge a book by its cover, or a smile to its emotion. There's much behind every smile. Goodnight to all, I think I've vented enough. Until next time, think about what makes you happy. Do it to its full potential.

-Alexa

Been Awhile.. Update

Hello everyone! Well, I started this as a class assignment, but I think I'm going to keep it personally. I think if I rant on here it will keep me from getting on my other social media sites and blowing up on people's news feeds. Thus, since it has been so long since I have posted anything, I'll give everyone an update on my life. Well, I finished my first year of college. I passed which is also important. I've learned how to truly study, and I came to the conclusion of what I want to major in, which is political science with a minor in legal studies since the U of A doesn't technically have a Pre-Law program. I have gained so many friends this year, and I've met so many people, partially because I joined Alpha Omicron Pi and the University of Arkansas Women's Rugby Team. However, with all of the highs this year, there were also many lows. I lost two people that were very close to me. First, I lost my friend from high school Tanner Nalley the Sunday before finals week I was suppose to come home from college for Christmas break. Then, almost 5 months to the day, my dear Aunt Carol died. Losing them, has impacted my life in the greatest ways. Life is just so short and shouldn't be taken for granted. It's taught me to really value my friendships, as well as they have shown me who my real friends are. Because I have been gone in Fayetteville, which is 3 hours from home, I have become distant. I rarely come home. I know that 3 hours doesn't seem a lot especially to those who live in Texas and whatnot, but it's still a lot. Plus, I had sorority stuff or exams, so I wasn't ever able to come home. I've been home a week, and I still feel like I have to cram all of my friends in that I haven't seen within like every hour of the day. I am still adjusting where I don't have to rush or pack to go back to school. In the past year, I've learned somethings not only about others, but more importantly, myself. I am turning 20 in November. I've grown up a lot, but I still have a long way to go. I'm not sure if that scares me or not, but I am as ready for as I can be. I'm going to try to keep this regularly updated on my life as well as my opinions. My summer goals consist of trying to figure out what truly makes me happy. I hit a few lows this year because of all the stress and just kind of coming into myself. So, whether it's finding a hobby or doing something different in my routine, I'm going to make myself happy. If I meet someone in the process, great. However, this isn't my objective. Everything I'm doing this summer is for me. I've got zero plans or trips, strictly playing everything by ear. In closing, I hope everyone had a wonderful second semester whether it was in high school or college. I know I have so many memories already that I'll never forget. :) Until next time, stay safe. Love everyone. And be nice :)

Kardashian Nation

Due to my bedridden self today because of a medical issue, I've watched a lot of television today. I stumbled up the E! Network, and of course the Kardashians were on. Khloe and Lamar, Kim and Kourtney Take New York, and Keeping Up with the Kardashians. Their father was a big time Hollywood lawyer, famously known for the O.J. Simpson trial in the early 90's, and their stepdad is an ex olympian. Their mother is not famous at all. I mention all of this because why the heck are they on television and famous? They haven't done anything. They aren't actors, they are reality stars. Kim is only famous because her and the singer Ray J had a sex tape. There is nothing special about them, and I don't understand why they are on television. They marry athletes which adds on the the fame, but I think they do it for attention. They are pretty, but there are a ton of other pretty people that could be on television. Let someone who is actually famous have a television show. Until next time, I'll probably be in bed all weekend. Be prepared for more rants!

-Alexa

16 and what?

Hey everyone, this is actually kind of important to rant about. I was on Facebook, and someone had clicked an article on youngest grandmother recorded. I was curious, so I read this article. This family from Spain, well mothers from Spain are having children way too young. The youngest grandmother being 23,  her daughter having a child at 12, and herself getting pregnant at 11. First of all, what kind of parent let's their child participate in such activities? I'm pretty sure when I was 12 I hadn't even kissed a boy, and even the thought of that grossed me out completely. I realize accidents happen, but seriously at the age of 12 you can't even get a job legally. How are you suppose to support that child? There are so many risks with having a kid that young too. Also, as you all know I enjoy MTV shows strictly for entertainment value. There's a show 16 and pregnant that shows these girls and their struggles they have being pregnant at such a young age. I realize it's suppose to help with prevention, but realistically I think it is swing get pregnant young and get a television show. When I was 16, I wanted to drive, and I was excited because my senior boyfriend invited me to prom. I couldn't even imagine getting pregnant then. My parents would have killed me, not because they were ashamed but rather because they cared. They care about my future more than I do, honestly. Another thing that bothers me, is when they are talking about how they got pregnant or asked if they used protection or anything, the answer is no. As popular as this show is and as popular this topic is in high school or even college, there is no excuse to say you didn't know. You're ignorant if you even think it wouldn't happen to you. I think I got my point across, please make good decisions about who you hook up with or whatever. Until next time, have a wonderful day!

-Alexa

Gorillas and Spray Tans

Hello everyone! I hope you had a wonderful spring break. I know mine was extremely relaxing because I literally did nothing but lay out on the beach. Over spring break I watched the ever so classy Jersey Shore. I am a fan of this show, but if you asked me why, I honestly couldn't tell you. I really don't understand how they are even considered "famous". Infamous maybe, but they have no claim to fame other than they party all the time. They all have zero class, and anyone who considers them a role model should probably reevaluate their life. Snooki the main star for getting black out drunk and going too crazy is pregnant. It made the cover of People magazine and was all over the news and Twitter. Seriously? What did you expect? Snooki and JWoww are getting a spin off show from MTV about apparently Snooki growing up and becoming a mom. I'm not impressed. These are people that said and I quote," put out the fire down, he was like a hermaphrodite or something." A hermaphrodite, really??? Pyromaniac would be more appropriate. These people are not intelligent, and they have zero class. Yet, they are entertaining none the less. I myself have told my friends I'm going to go GTL, gym, tan, and laundry, which is a common acronym the casts says. DJ Pauly D is getting his own show, but it's just going to be about him DJ-ing. How exciting? I just think that we should have better role models on television. It's pretty ridiculous. Also, none of them are truly Italian except for Vinny. Yes, those are just white people with Italian descent. They have northern accents and none of them are actually from Jersey either. I don't understand how this show has lasted 5 seasons. They tan, they eat, they fight, they workout, and they party. What makes them famous? Anyone that has seen them act on something other than Jersey Shore knows they should stick to their day job. There are seriously being paid a ton just to be obnoxious. They are not intelligent, and they are just regular people that need to grow up. What makes them so special?? I go to college, and yes I go out occasionally. I'm actually doing something with my life, and I don't get my own television show. Let's be honest, I'm boring. I should have another tangent later this week because something will spark my interest. Oh well, until next time I'm Alexa Ray :) Have a wonderful week!

Kony 2012

Sorry, it's been awhile since anything of mine has become updated. It's midterms, oh well. Anyways, more importantly I a bit of a long rant about something today. As most of you know, there is a KONY 2012 video on youtube. In case, you haven't this video is on youtube and it's about the invisible children in Africa. Joseph Kony is a guy that is taking children from their homes and telling them to kill their parents and completely taking away their freedom. He turns boys into child soldiers and girls into sex slaves. This is a very important cause, and yes it is a problem. However, the invisible children foundation has been criticized because it only gives 30% of it's earnings to the children. I'm pretty sure that is more than what any of us are giving on our own. To make money, you have to have money. Another thing is that people are complaining that Kony is nowhere to be found, and it isn't an issue anymore. I'm pretty sure if it wasn't an issue, it wouldn't have been brought up now. Most people that are complaining aren't in Africa; thus, you don't know what's going on. I get it, really I do. However, don't complain or be negative because someone else wants to support a cause. Be respectful. Okay, I think I'm done. Until next time, enjoy the weather!

-Alexa